live as if there is no tomorrow..

给在天堂的keeying

2011-12-26T11:45:00.002+08:00

八婆，你好吗？昨晚我做了一个很不开心的梦。。我梦见开学了，我们又像以前一样很开心的回到senadin去。。但不知怎么的，我像迷路了似的。。我看见huathui,爱珍。。但我怎样都记不起爱珍的家怎么走。。我在5637那里，但fion她们都若隐若现。。我一直找不到你们。。我很害怕，很彷徨。。我怎么记也记不起你们的电话号码。我一直喊你。。一直叫，但你始终没有出现。可是当时你就在，只是我看不到你。那些八婆也出现，然后消失。。可是我感觉你们都在。。我就是看不到你们。。我一直跑，一直跑。。但跑不出来。。后来，看见爱珍，她匆忙的给我留下她的电话，一眨眼，也消失了。。

醒来的时候，我的心很不舒服。。也许梦境想告诉我，一切都过去了。。我们再也回不去了。。但不要紧，我相信那段快乐的时间，会是我们每个生命里，很美丽的一段回忆吧。也是我们生命旅途上，短暂却很美丽的插曲。。我们继续向前吧。。我们在前面的休闲站再见咯。。 =）

0612.2011

2011-12-06T13:08:00.003+08:00

一个意义非凡的日子，我在乎的那个人既然记得是什么日子，那感觉好幸福，虽然他在遥远处。

这首歌“好的事情” 说着我的心情

休息是為了走更長的路

你就是我的旅途
都是因為你我一直漫步

想要跟你一起走到最後
但我遺失了地圖
誰給誰束縛誰比誰辛苦
愛到深處才會領悟

好的事情最後雖然結束
感動十分就有十分滿足
謝謝你是你陪我走過那些路
痛是以後無法再給你幸福

好的事情也許能夠重複
感動時分就算紛紛模糊
不要哭至少你和我記得很清楚
愛是為彼此祝福

这一生最好的事情。。oo 要平安健康哦！ ♥

加油！

2011-12-05T19:51:00.004+08:00

今天心情不错，我想我该写些正面的文章了。。

虽然不知道几时还能再有神仙般的生活。。但现在平静也是种福吧。

做人真的该知足，真的该知道，昨天已经回不去了，有没有明天也不知道，何不好好的过着能掌控的此时此刻就好呢？我也知道这些说着容易，但做起来。。天啊。哈哈。。尤其像我这样的人。

原来，要写些正面的文章，我写不出什么。哈哈。。我完了。

好吧。。那就回想这不开心的几年里一些开心的事。。

em..

*有个傻瓜喜欢扮mr.bean的样子，用mr.bean的口气跟我说"hallo.."

*有个傻瓜喜欢逼我喝一些提神饮料，每次都用尽法子，软硬兼施，就是要我喝下..良药苦口。

*有个傻瓜一有空会给我打电话，陪着我，我没空，他也得陪着我，反正，一天24小时，我就是

要和他联系着。。就因为这样，电讯公司应该超级不爽我们。因为我们的通话是免费的。

*有个傻瓜会笨笨的用他那臭脾气表达他对我的关心，这样笨的人都有，两句甜言蜜语也不会讲，好好的话也不会讲，就只会冲着我，然后我还得后知后觉的，去发掘他的用心。什么意思都不懂。

*有个傻瓜会笨笨的和我大吵以后，宁可让我伤心，也忍着心不给我打电话，但另一头，又给我买日常用品，还有给我的“干粮箱”补货，然后，还用那十分大男人却又让你根本没办法生他气的口气问,"我疼你吗？” 废话。。这还用答吗？

反正就是有个很不平凡的傻瓜，用他不平凡的一套，教我做人，教我人生，教我现实，还有教我很多很多东西，他让我欢笑，他带给我快乐，也带给我悲伤，也让我流泪，但他始终是我快乐的泉源，我和傻瓜像朋友，想情人，像夫妻，像家人，偶尔也像猫狗，吵吵架，很少“小吵”，偶尔“中吵”，大多数“大吵” 哈哈。。不管我们什么关系都好，我只希望我们真的吵不散。你永远是我心中最不平凡，最有分量的那一个。

还有有个采璇，我不知道怎么形容她，可能上辈子她欠我太多，哈哈。。这一辈子就被我缠着，在我需要的时候，她在远远的地方，也得听我发牢骚，就算我不说，她也知道。哈哈。。不管我做什么，就算全世界都不看好我，都反对我，她一定会支持我，而且可以不问原因的站在我这边挺我！这种人，你说是不是上辈子欠了我？哈哈。。

还有一个apphia.. 还记得大学时期，她就是个我们公认“很好很善良的女孩子”。我还记得那时还没和她非常熟时，她既然很乐意的跟我说，“你如果没有车去学校，你打给我” 也许你忘了，但我真的有感动到。也许不是很特别的事，但对于一个面对交通问题的我而言，她的话真的很窝心。而且我还记得那时，星期五的早课，我很常没有车去上课。好像因为和爱珍时间上有冲突什么的，她既然一直要把车子借给我。。谢谢你啊。。真的到现在我还记得你那善良的模样。还有，你一直在blog这里给我的支持加油。谢谢你 =）

其实，生活还是很美好的，只要心态对了，还是一片海阔天空的。。从今天开始，我希望我会再快乐起来。。做回那个当初你们认识那个快乐的我。努力！

觉悟-负责

2011-12-02T14:44:00.006+08:00

自从两年半以前，我考完最后一张试卷以后，从此就告别了梦幻的世界。踏入的是，残酷，现实的社会。现实里，你很多时候得自己做选择，而且，选择不再只是简单的，挑选上课时间，逃不逃课，去哪吃饭，打不打mamaji 等等等等。。现实里，你得为你的选择，承担一切的后果。好的坏的，你都得接受。万一做错了选择，没有人会帮你承担，没有人会理你，总之，一切后果自负。有句话说，Before sex, you undress each other. After sex, you only dress yourself. Moral of the story: No one helps you once you're fucked. 很赞吧！

昨天，有个男人告诉我，“你选的啊，所以你需要承担” 。我愣了，也冷了。但还不愿意醒来。原来，我以为怎样都会有个人可以和我一起分担，但其实，我错了。根本没有人会为我负上任何责任。我却傻傻的以为自己其实也没有想象的孤独，至少会有个人在吧。但其实我错了。我终于领悟到，无论感情，工作，还是生活上大大小小，每一件事情，我。。都得为自己负责。

谢谢你，男人。还有，男人，我想你了。。

！@#￥%……

2011-11-27T10:55:00.002+08:00

好久没来了。。

2011就快结束了。。事情始终没有变好过。。

这个早上，心情莫名的恐慌。。不知道自己在担心害怕什么。。

也没办法安抚自个儿的心情。

天啊！几时才可以放过我。。

2009，2010，2011.。3年了，还要怎样。。

我知道曾经我太快乐，太幸福，根本不知道，也不用担心未来是什么。。

但，现在偿还的代价也太大了吧..

!@#$%^&* 我现在想做的就是骂骂骂骂骂。。

骂什么也不知道。。哈哈。。我疯了。哈哈。。

笨！

第3次在天堂的生日

2011-08-19T09:32:00.006+08:00

8po, 我好想你.. 八月的意义,对我而言,不是国庆日,不是假期,不是raya,而是你的生日,

我只能在人间祝福在天堂的你,生日快乐!

三年前,

无情的情人节,残酷的车祸, 就这样把你带走了..

依然记得, 你临走前给我的那通电话, 嬉闹的告诉我,你要出国了,叫我不要再找你了..

你那所谓的出国, 就是从马来西亚美里"出国"到邻国文莱的边界KB吃寿司..

果然,我永远都找不到你了..

三年了, 你好吗? 投胎了吗?

应酬的安慰，谁不知道，人需要往前看。。说到容易！！

我怀念以前的日子，怀念我们大家在一起的每一天。。

8po,我好多话和你说。。可是你不在了。。

你在哪？？你好久没来我梦里了。。

早点投胎吧。。来生我们再做8po...

如果你还在，今年就是24岁生日了。。

生日快乐，晚安！

想说说话

2011-08-07T14:16:00.003+08:00

就来到这里。。一个属于我的天地。

没什么特别的，就，还是一样，没顺心。

25岁，就该过着同龄女孩过的生活吗？有标准在吗？

谁说，25岁就得这样，那样的。。

25岁的年龄背后，难道就不能隐藏着很多不为人知的故事吗？

好多好多的故事，让25岁的我感觉自己经历了不少，不敢说自己不幼稚，但敢说自己比很多人成熟。

也许，25岁，说自己对很多事情心灰了，会被人嘲笑幼稚，但这是我。我的感受。我也不介意别人怎么说。

总觉得自己不是个幸运的人，我清楚的知道自己没那种所谓的好命，除了自己，没人能让我依靠。我必须很努力，幸运的是，我争取到了，我的梦想实现了，我有我的事业，而且还是梦想中的事，虽然它和我梦想的还有一大段差距，至少这是一个开始了。

人生有起有伏。我相信，我的彩虹会再出现。

看了一则报道

2011-08-06T13:07:00.003+08:00

一则关于一位女大生，打七份工，为了养活病重的母亲，车祸的父亲，还有天生有心脏病的弟弟，还得兼顾学业，没有过着一般同龄女孩过的生活，但她没有怨言。

为何我还那么的不知足

丰衣足食，学士学位，梦想工作，理想事业，没有债务，没有负担

相较起来，我该感恩了

虽然，牺牲掉的是生活，朋友。。一个人的空虚孤单，得独自承担

但，其实，有个人，几乎每天都给我打电话，几乎每晚给我写信息，这，不也很好吗？=）

谢谢你傻瓜。

还有一班在全国各地打拼着的好朋友。。加油咯。有机会我们一定会再在一起吃火锅的。

头好痛，心好累

2011-08-01T17:53:00.003+08:00

原来，我没有对象好说话。。

拿起电话，没有一个号码我一定可以打。。

电话簿里，没有一个名字一定可以信息。。

心里急的想有个人聆听，给予意见，却只能干着急

没完没了不顺心的事，究竟何时才能结束，终点究竟在何方

我不知道我的坚强还能让我撑多久。。

我只知道我没办法松弛下来，甚至没办法停下来，好好的呼吸。。

此刻，我想静静的，安心的，没有负担的，心里踏实的好好睡一觉，但这也好像变成了一种奢望，天啊！！

所谓的避风港

2011-07-27T22:39:00.005+08:00

疲惫了，有个肩膀可依靠，有个家好当避风港。。我为何好像什么都没有。

不知何时开始，失去了回家的向往。。

讨厌听见那发脾气的声音，厌倦了那用力甩东西的杂音，

每一个pim pam声，都震得我心多害怕，甚至想逃离。。

真的好恨现在虚假的我。为现实而过的生活，究竟我在做什么？

也不明白自己何来的能耐，去压抑自己的情绪

以前和现在都那么叛逆不孝，既然我本来就不孝顺，当初又何必立志要改变。。

今晚，我依然不知道明天要为了什么而起身..

欣慰的是，我知道自己为了什么而活着 00

晚安了。。

=（

2011-07-22T15:58:00.003+08:00

我找回某个时段的我。。

那个不为自己辩护，任人误会，也不反击的我。。

也许因为当时心冷了那么一刻。。没有力气再说什么。。

只想等着时间为我证明。。但，我还有多少时间。。

不怪人，只因自己一次又一次的犯错，甚至把对我的信任给毁了，现在没资格要求信任。。

只是这一次，我真的没有错。。

还是，我不知道我错了？

=（

零。要求的爱

2011-07-18T16:13:00.002+08:00

对你- 零要求

那样- 你没压力

而我- 也没期望

这样真的有简单些。。

工作，家人，情人，朋友。。

2011-07-14T14:57:00.005+08:00

工作，是我的全部。。

家人，我严重忽略。。

情人，一直活在我脑里，心里，甚至我知道他一直守候在身边。。

而朋友，虽然都不在身旁，但却一直都存在着。。

我不是一个人，但我孤单，因为我心灵上感到空虚。。

我知道自己不快乐。。就从她车祸去世那一天起。。

不开心的事不间断，一波未平，一波又起。。

两年半，我经历的，像二十五年那样多。。

人生这一潮，真的让我心力交瘁。。

我长大了，

我变了，

我虚伪了，因为我依旧带着笑容，即使笑容已不再发自内心了，

我伪装了，因为我没办法用真正的我过现在的生活了。。

庆幸的，还有个人，可以让我诚实的做我自己，

在他面前，我可以吵闹，可以哭泣，可以撒野，可以放下一切。。

内心没负担的，做我自己，过我想过的生活。。

我哭，他会抱着我，等我哭完了，他再安慰我。。

我为他哭，他就会不理我，我想，他不懂怎么面对我为他流的泪吧。。所以逃避。。真傻。。

如果不是他，我想我还在为她的逝世而每晚哭泣吧。。是那个傻瓜每晚陪着我，直到我发现我已经好久没有哭了，才知道他已经把我带出来了。。

如果不是他，那些一波接着一波，没完没了的挫折，我想我已经放弃倒下了吧。。

还有个我五岁那年开始的好朋友，我们就是简单的好朋友。

不用文字来形容，不用语言来表达，我们就是。。好朋友。

这份情谊就是那么的真实，那么的简单，那么的容易，那么的干脆利落。。

至少，他们让我知道，今天生活不至于黑暗，因为我还有他们。

祝我生日快乐

2011-06-05T23:01:00.003+08:00

本来以为这个生日很孤单

但还是谢谢你，还有你。。

午夜十二点，虽然只有两封信息进来，但你们那两封就是我等待的。。

谢谢你的小小蛋糕，还有你的小蛋糕。。

我都说了，你们两个很像嘛。。

但你不要跟我抢他噢。。我知道你不会，不然我就大大声唱你们。哈哈

我不孤单，因为你们两个永远都会在。。

虽然，你们一样不能呆在我身边。

我爱你们。。 muakz..

...

2011-04-26T14:42:00.003+08:00

茫然的。。迷失了。。

自己变成了自己最熟悉的陌生人。。

我到底怎么了？

为什么一切的改变，我既然屈服了。。

对于现实的一切，我既然欣然的学着接受了。。

但为何，心是酸的，还带着一丝丝的痛楚。。

笔呢？

2011-01-22T23:01:00.005+08:00

生活一片黑

把彩色盒拿出来

想为生活上满颜色

可盒子里空荡荡的

色笔都不见了

开心伤心开始结束

2010-12-31T11:35:00.005+08:00

2008 开心的开始，伤心的结束
2009 伤心的开始，开心的结束
2010 开心的开始，伤心的结束
2011 伤心的开始，将如何结束？

亲爱的

2010-12-25T12:08:00.003+08:00

圣诞快乐！

不开心，只想静静

2010-12-22T12:10:00.005+08:00

今年不想热闹，

只想静静的过圣诞
等我调整好心态

等事情有了变化

等时机成熟了

等一切好了

我再出发吧。。

原来没有意义时，什么都变得没意义，

甚至想躲起来逃避，不去面对佳节的喜悦，唉。。

2012

2010-12-08T10:54:00.004+08:00

如果2012的我，还是现在这样的我，

那么

如果2012真的可以如电影那样的世界末日，

我希望这一天快点到来。。

0612.2010

2010-12-06T15:13:00.011+08:00

天亮了，醒来
身体好疲倦
背部空荡荡的
重重的，酸酸的
好想你的抱抱

习惯的，躺着，赖着，想着。。

电话响了，
甜蜜的信息，把我弄哭了。。
谢谢你哦。。

前年今天的我，在哪里
去年今天的我，在想你
今年今天的我，还在想你
明年今天的我，也依然的在想你吗？
后年今天的我，会不会不用再想你，已经依偎在你怀里？

一年的差距，不长，但我过得好像半辈子一样。。
不是时间过得慢，而是发生了太多。。
酸甜苦辣咸，笑泪汗血
甜蜜开心幸福简单快乐，
伤悲遗憾心烦忧心辛酸，

我像在一夜里突然长大的小孩
我像经历了好多突然老了的大人

我像很幸运的，遇到快乐，找到天空，找到了一切。。
我也像很不幸的，因为一切都不能属于我。。

我像做了场美梦，甜美的梦让我好难相信它其实是现实
我也像做了场恶梦，残酷的现实让我好希望它其实只是场恶梦

zn快乐！

薏米汤

2010-12-03T01:09:00.002+08:00

突然想到我和你薏米汤的故事
不太记得那时为什么你要煮薏米汤给我喝。。
只知道，你不懂去了哪里，然后去了老半天才回来，
吃过午餐吧，你用命令的口气叫我去睡午觉，
我还问，"可以不要睡吗？”
你说， “不可以！” 傻傻的我也得乖乖的去睡。。
安抚我入睡后，
你就忙着你的处男秀，煮那薏米汤，哈哈
伺候我这嘴叼的，你有压力吧。。
那时醒来，真有感动到。。傻瓜
还记得你弄了碗热的，还有冷的。。
想到那锅爱心薏米汤，喝着都感觉得到你的用心。。
现在，还甜丝丝的回味着。。

原来，你中午失踪的那一段时间，你到处找薏米，还去找pandan叶，
但请问宝贝，当时你这些东西放哪呀？为什么你回来时，我没看到呢？

一碗看似简单的薏米汤，包含着你的爱心，还有简单与幸福。。
还有，我们甜美的回忆。。

今天你好吗？还有煮薏米汤吗？

你的生日

2010-11-29T20:54:00.013+08:00

给我最亲爱的。。
今天你过生日。。
不能在你身边，不能陪你度过。。
现在，我只想哭。。继续哭。。
把眼泪哭尽，但我好像有流不完的泪，
你很幸运，因为只有你有机会对我说“eeee..zak...哭包”
也只有你，看得见那个没有一直用笑容来掩饰内心感受的我。。

你生日咯，突然不想祝你快乐了
因为我都不在，你快乐什么？

可是我还是有煮了

哪。。我帮你吃，当着和你庆祝

还有啊，记得啊！记得我每次挂电话前交代你的那句话。。

真的好想为你唱生日歌

陪你许愿吹蜡烛切蛋糕

每个平凡的日子

都想在你身边

梦里见吧，晚安

那个傻瓜

2010-11-24T22:12:00.008+08:00

有个傻瓜，怕她夜里饿着，给她买了好多好多饼干。。

有个傻瓜，怕她着凉，给她买了外套，让她好好穿着它。。

有个傻瓜，不让她吃雪糕，只因雪糕会让她老毛病发，他不能在身边照顾她。。

有个傻瓜，不让她吃云吞时不吃云吞肉，不让她浪费食物，只因他不能在身边帮她吃那些她浪费掉的食物

有个傻瓜，一直骂她挑食，说她嘴刁，但，还是给她弄她爱吃的。。

有个傻瓜，吃饭拿菜挑咸蛋时，总给她挑蛋黄最多的，挑错了，还拿回去和老板娘换 ;)

有个傻瓜，不会表达他对她的太在乎，只会傻傻的在那发脾气吃醋。。

有个傻瓜，明明曾为她哭了，还死不承认，明明一整夜没睡，天亮给她打通电话，哭过的声音告诉她他很想她，让她好好照顾自己。。

有个傻瓜，她生日那天，骗她他得出门一趟，结果半夜12点，突然的出现，没有蛋糕，但有一粒插了蜡烛的汉堡包，为她唱生日歌。。让她感动的，就想嫁给他了。。哈哈。。

有个傻瓜，晚上临睡前冲凉洗澡洗脸时，总爱把脸弄得白白的，知道她害怕，故意吓她。。

有个傻瓜，明知道她对肚脐有过分的抗拒，敏感，反感，不能接受，反应超大。。总爱故意玩肚脐，看她吵闹的样子，她受不了了，只能和他求饶，但，无作用，他兴奋的继续玩。。

有个傻瓜，明明就爱打死老鼠，还说“谁叫它吓你？！，谁叫它欺负你？！”

有个傻瓜，对她发脾气了，因为她没定时吃饭，傻瓜不知道，她故意不吃，因为她很爱他给她送饭盒来的感觉，那甜丝丝，温暖，幸福的感觉，让她越来越爱傻瓜。。
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给那个傻瓜的话，

傻瓜，你傻的好可爱。。这才是她要的，真实的。。

她没有要你学历高，身价高，身材高。。
她也没有爱高跟鞋；平底鞋，球鞋，拖鞋。。她一样可以陪你走下去。。
她没有要名牌，她没有要荣华富贵，她也没有要山珍海味。。

她要的很简单，和你一样。

而你，也足以满足她要的一切。。

如果可以，给她一个家，给她一个未来，做她人生的伴，陪她走下去。。

参与她生活，她人生；就像她渴望参与你的一样 =）

祝福你们！但愿---有情人终成眷属 =）

不想睡

2010-11-24T01:28:00.002+08:00

该说
不敢睡

害怕关上灯，一片黑暗，一片孤寂，
害怕失眠，脑，心，泪，失去控制
害怕残酷的现实，又把我心刺痛
害怕脑里又浮现，那甜美的画面
害怕心里又乱想，那我不想要的
害怕眼泪又按耐不住。。

啊！！

疯了

2010-11-10T11:57:00.003+08:00

我真的疯了。。

没有感觉，
没有心情，
没有表情，
没有笑容，
没有反应，

脑袋空空，
面无笑容，
心情低落，

的看着我曾经最爱看，也带给我欢笑的 Tom&Jerry

生活失去意义以后，真的，什么都变得没意义了。。

你。。知道吗？

？？

2010-11-08T13:34:00.003+08:00

以前，我有双美丽的翅膀，自由的飞翔。。
现在，我选择放弃了它。。
让翅膀它渐渐消失，因为我疲倦，没力气飞了。。
如今，我双脚也好像断了。。
不管多努力的行走，始终到达不了我要到达的目的地。即使那只是很短的距离

我的快乐笑容也不见了。。

因为快乐的根源，被斩断了。。

有时，好恨自己的坚强，为何不当个懦弱的女孩，让人怜惜就好呢？

为何有能力一直去面对有的没的，大的小的，却还没被击倒。。

为何不能在人家面前，不开心，就放声大哭。。

有时，好恨自己的潇洒，但，为何现在再也潇洒不起来了呢？

为何不能再像以前一样，一觉醒来，就忘了呢？

有时，好恨自己的伪装，内心其实痛苦的要命，为何还能挤出那个笑容面对大家呢？

万万个为什么，都得不到答案。。

好多事情，我想知道，尤其未来。。

我的心，除了空，还有一堆不会有答案的问题。。

有谁可以告诉我？有谁可以为我解答？天啊，你在哪？告诉我，这一切的理由好吗？

《未来的第一站》

2010-11-05T12:12:00.011+08:00

没有太阳，好灰的天空,

有如我心情，那么的低落

行尸走肉，毫无意义的生活着

努力找寻昔日的意义

那首《未来的第一站》终于，让我找回了一些

让我想起当初

在我好茫然的时候

是你的爱给了我方向感

是你的爱寸步没离开

陪我从模糊的地带

走向实现理想的舞台

是你教我把梦拉开

也是你要我抬起头来

不让人家瞧不起

坚持做自己

你让我答应你

无论如何，放弃绝不可以

但

你不在身边

一个人撑得好累，好累..

开心没人分享

担忧没人分担

好想有个肩膀可依靠

好想有个怀抱好依赖

而我

依然怀念你那可靠的肩膀，温暖的怀抱

你默默的支持

是我唯一撑下去的动力

你也许是别人天空中最微弱的星

但你是我心目中最灿烂的那颗。。永远，永远的。。

也是这颗闪亮的星

在我迷失方向的时候

再次带我回到最原始的地方

找回了当初的意义

原来，星星没有离开

你一直都在。。

虽然你和我的距离，似远

有如天地之差，到达不了

但，心与心的相连

让我感觉你一直的存在。

谢谢你 (o-o) o o tu tu tu tu tu tu tu tu ..

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下雨的夜晚

2010-10-27T20:44:00.004+08:00

又是一个寒冷的雨天。。
你依然不在身边。。
天黑了。。你还好吗？

喝着热热的美绿。。
身体也暖和了。。
那温暖牌外套。。
暖暖的，有如躲在你怀抱里。。
还记得，你傻傻的叮咛着。。
怕我着凉，让我穿着，
还傻傻的说，
“我不在身边，外套代我抱抱你!"
说完，还一直附加 “记得哦！”
傻瓜。。还一直叫我把被单pin着床单边，不然又掉去地板。。
你以为pin lampin 尿布啊。。哈哈

今夜你那冷吗？
记得盖被，别着凉了。。
不要以为自己像牛一样。。
身体壮的很。。

此刻，我好想躲在你怀里。。暖暖的。。入睡。

晚安。

尾声。。

2010-10-19T11:09:00.003+08:00

当一切即将结束，

才感觉自己多么的无助，

想把一切留住，

但事事却都受阻。

如果距离产生了美感，

就算永远摆脱不了那距离，

至少美感将成永恒，

那份爱，也已刻在心。。

临睡*晚安

2010-10-10T23:34:00.004+08:00

当工作。。
可以用来麻醉自己时。。
这又何尝不是件好事？

至少工作量增加，
效率也更高，
悲伤已被转为力量
填补那空荡荡的心

但，
忙碌以后，内心还是一样的空虚。。
还是那么的难受。。
忙碌了一天，
一个人回家，
没有你的声音。。
没有你的叮咛。。

回到家里，
不再有你在线。。
洗完澡，
又是一个孤独，
一个没有晚安陪我入睡的夜晚。。

但我知道，
在另一端的你，也和我一样。。
而你，也依然会习惯的跟我说 ** 晚安，对吧？

她

2010-10-09T16:12:00.005+08:00

也许有一天，你会看见这篇blog..

明天，就是你的毕业典礼了。。

你这大日子，我没办法出席。。

但你下一个大日子，我不管怎样都一定会在！

我们真的已经长大了。。

19年了..哇。。明年就是我们20年了。。像老夫老妻那样了。。希望我们还有20年，再20年，再20年。。
19年，好长。。从幼稚园那小孩，到小学，到中学那少年，到大学，到现在在社会了。。你一直都在。。尤其在我低落的时候。。谢谢你。虽然你不在身边，但你一直都在。也许你没做什么，但你帮了我好多。。你最简单的精神上的支持，已经帮了我好多好多。每次不开心，和你聊完，心情也纾解了。有时找不到你，我就会好无助。。

璇。。啊！！！！！！！！！！！唉。。。我好空虚。意义呢? 生活呢? 乐趣呢？救我！

我真的好不快乐！

今天

2010-09-30T12:53:00.004+08:00

心。。好。。不知怎么说。。

依然那么的。。。酸。。

痛痛的。。空空的。。

也许工作可以让我暂时的忘记。。

但，脑里，心里。。没有一刻不想起。。

不快乐的中秋

2010-09-22T22:26:00.003+08:00

他和她

2010-09-17T11:05:00.011+08:00

生命里，有两个，他与她。。
对我好重要。。
他们用对的方式爱我，
没人比他们更懂我。。

他是个超出友谊的朋友。。
他对我的爱，对我的疼，没人能取代
他会一直指点我。。指引我正确的方向。。
他不让我被欺负。。反应常和她的一样大。。
他不能呆在我身边，就让我自己学会照顾自己。。
他还是常常担心我，因为我根本不会好好照顾自己。。

她是我最好的朋友。。
她不多问，但会聆听。。
她不随便反对我，因为她知道，我一定有我原因。。
她相信我能力。。她知道我可以。。
她支持我。。不管我的决定是什么。。
她反应比我大，如果我被人家欺负了。。

生命里，有他和她，真好。。
如果老天让我把我拥有的一切，交换他们一直呆在我身边,
一起生活，一起打拼。。
我会很肯定，很用力的点头，跟它说“我愿意”

其实我不能用"朋友" 来形容他们。。那太肤浅了。

有他们的日子，一切都好好。。
但，老天不让他们在我身边。。

虽然，我不能拥有他们。。
可是，我还是感觉得到，他们一直都在。。

我好想他，好想她。。
没有你们的日子。。
我好不快乐。。
没有生活。。
没有乐趣。。
没有意义。。

唉。。

天黑了

2010-09-13T19:20:00.003+08:00

天黑了。。我又很想你了。。

不管天黑，天亮。。还是什么天。。

你都一直在我脑里，在我心里。。

今天你好吗？

。。

2010-09-12T21:01:00.006+08:00

店提早打烊了。。
不想回家。。好怕回到房间，又得面对自己。。
冷清清的房间，静静的电话，没动静的电脑。。
空虚的心。。想念的心。。
又会是一场自我的心里战。。
最后一定又是泪不自主的流。。
脑里又是我们甜蜜的画面。。
接着心痛。。心酸。。酸得心直发抖。。

啊！！！！！！！！！！
天啊！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！
为什么！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

今晚。。

2010-09-11T23:53:00.003+08:00

今晚的心情糟透了。。

低落到不行。。

空虚到可以感觉自己的心在发冷。。空空的。。

当一个人左右着你的心情。。你不得不承认，他已不是一个普通的他了。。

幸运些，他会是你的他。。

反之。。。唉!

她走了，我每晚哭泣。。你把我从那伤心里，带回来。。我不再每晚哭。。不再躲在被里哭泣。。

因为你一直在身边。。但现在，我又一直哭了。。我躲在被里哭泣时，不能再听见 “不要哭了，我好心疼”，也不会有你抱紧我，帮我擦泪了。。

好想。。好想你！o o

想 oo

2010-09-09T15:56:00.008+08:00

想你了

今天，你好吗

没有回应的思念

傻傻的

等待

苦苦的思念

却被一道无形的墙

阻隔了

简单幸福

2010-09-08T21:54:00.003+08:00

静静的

依偎着

好简单，好幸福

这一生，有你陪

这一路，有你牵

这一切，都足够

这生活，有意义

虽然

这些，此时

都是奢侈的渴望

都只是奢望

但

奇迹

只要相信

就会

有实现的一天

彩虹

2010-08-31T10:13:00.007+08:00

彩虹，好美

尤其傍晚的彩虹

美丽的彩虹，暖暖的夕阳

平静的幸福

彩虹，好美，但短暂

想留住，可谁也做不到

彩虹终究会消失离开

但00

彩虹不会永远的消失

它依然会再出现

下雨了。。

2010-08-21T13:05:00.003+08:00

心情和外面的天气一样的低落

外面的雨，像我的心一样的哭泣

滴在伞上的每一滴雨点，就像每一个你，滴在我脑里，在我心里。。

oo 你是否也和我一样？

还是那样的想你。。生日快乐

2010-08-19T14:19:00.011+08:00

以前吃喝玩乐的我们。。你那ah-ngok的头发

吃火锅是我们生活的一部分

muakz

整天傻傻，无聊，讲傻话，做傻事的我们

那一次，我们在汶莱

那一次，我们在美里dessert 吃 ice cream..

那一次，我们在古晋晒的像烧猪一样的我们。。还是那样的快乐

那一次，我们被人家骂的那一次。。“不准拍照!" 我们还很不爽的说，哪里有贴告示说不可以

那一次，在你家，人大大，还要吃小小的雪糕

模仿是我们最爱做的傻事

那一年你二十一岁，我在热棒棒买的蛋糕

我们在LEO Club的日子这些都过去了，此景不再了。。

就快两年了。。我还是那样的想念你。。好希望你看得到今天的我。。的我们。。大家事业都有了。。各分东西。。正在努力。。八婆，我好想你。。你在天堂快乐吗？我多希望你还在。。多希望这只是一场恶梦，快点从梦中醒来。。我以为自己接受你的离开了。。可是我的心还是好痛好痛。。谈起你，想起你，想到以前的我们，点点滴滴。。我又会忍不住哭了。。八婆，你来我梦里好吗？我好久没看见你了。。他跟我说，你投胎了，过得很开心，叫我不可以再那样伤心。。他说你也不愿意看见我伤心，是吗？你见过他吧，如果你还在天堂，如果你已成了天使，帮我保佑他，一切安好，心疼他憔悴的样子，心疼自己没办法为他做些什么。。

八婆，生日快乐！

鸡翅膀·。·你

2010-08-01T21:49:00.007+08:00

一个人吃着鸡翅膀。。

吃到一个部分时。。

突然想起离我好远好远的你。。

那是你爱吃的部分，而我不吃的。。

你常笑我傻傻的，爱吃那没人爱吃的部分。。

可你每次还是把那部分给我吃。。你才傻吧。。傻傻的傻瓜oo

也好，一只鸡翅膀，我们可以双赢的分。。你吃这，我吃那。。

好久没有你的消息。。好想知道你在哪，在世界哪个角落，好想知道你做什么。。好想知道你过着怎样的生活。。好想好想。。你。。

她好想他。。

2010-07-29T11:42:00.010+08:00

天气好烂，心情好差。。
生活毫无乐趣，更别提意义。。
笑容不再发自内心。。
吃饭只为了吃而吃。。
生活只为了过而过。。
曾经的快乐，曾经的幸福，曾经的简单，曾经的乐趣，曾经的意义。。

已是曾经。。
“过错只是暂时的遗憾，而错过却是一生永远的遗憾”

深深体会，它也成了心中最痛的痛。。永远永远的

sunday

2010-07-18T12:35:00.002+08:00

for me..

sunday is supposed to be sunny..
sunday is supposed to be free..
sunday is supposed to be peace..
sunday is supposed to be easy..
sunday is supposed to be restful..
sunday is supposed to be leisure..
sunday is supposed to be with him, freely, peacefully, easily, leisurely, enjoying the sun.. eating ice cream.. walking around..

but now

sunday no longer mean anything to me..

lOve..

after awhile..

2010-07-16T12:46:00.002+08:00

apphia reminds me that, my blog hasnt been update for awhile..

too many things all these while.. facing with the negative side of the society, human's busy body's nature and staff.. but anyway.. thanks for all the mental support ..

its bout a month since the opening of my little cafe.. business going well.. so far so good.. and hoping that it would grows smooth and well..

in short..i love what im doing right now.. i would never give up no matter how rocky the road is.. thing isnt always easy.. but i believe that.. there is always sunshine after stormy rain =) wish me luck !

its been long....

2010-06-10T14:50:00.002+08:00

last post was on..... argh.. doesnt matter..

kinda free.. here to have some update..

life is.. not as good as what ppl seen.. my little cafe will be opening soon, it has been always my dream of doing my own business, now that its located at my own place.. i could stay with my family again, after 11 years of being staying outside.. im supposed to be happy, yet i cant feel the excitement at all.. no one knows, but myself.. who doesnt envy me, be my own boss..dream comes true at the age of 24.. sigh..

its isnt easy..

KK Trip-Day 4

2009-12-15T23:50:00.007+08:00

Final Day in KK

Brunch inside Center Point opposite our apartment

Shop around

meet this drunk fellow.. eric terpaksa entertain him. poor him..

High tea at .. where was this again? cant remember..

Last station before we heading back to apartment

went for our fav fried oyster again before leaving for airport

busy-ing

ini tauke ada susah sikit.. all IC dropped

Bye Jenny, Bye Jonathan, Bye KK

jamie,jenny,wg

Finally, we arrived in Miri Airport.. yeah home sweet home!

hey all, im looking forward for our next trip..hope that it wont be too long in the future

may we travel again soooooooooooooon =)

-take care-

KK Trip - Day 3

2009-12-15T21:11:00.013+08:00

Day 3-Start our day with yummy breakfast

beancurd

Chicken feet

生肉汤

with noodle..

Proceed to 1Borneo

Spend hours here, bought nothing

Evening , we had light dinner here before sending Danny to airport, he flew back a day earlier than us..

KKIA-bye danny, see you on our next trip

Later on, we proceed to ???

having dumpling

Lamb

Squid

after dinner.. jalan jalan at bukit bendera KK

ghost story telling??

back to apartment, kinda early, so 5of us walk to the pub opposite

In THE BED

with jamie

heng, apa macam ni?

tiring kiemin, excited heng,control handsome eric

heng chiaw chin, and that kiemin surprised us so much,nvm see him dance with us, sekali dance with angmo..

Makcik took this pic for us

hungry,heavy supper at mc D, 2am

Play around on our way back to apartment

2.40 am Arrived at apartment area, we were all exhausted

The End of day 3 in KK

KK Trip- Day 2

2009-12-15T18:02:00.008+08:00

Day 2-no editing on those pictures, kinda lazy.. =)

Beginning of the day..

in the cab

port welcome us..island awaiting for us

yuhoo.. heading to manukan island

we were still dry

first round by Atos team

2nd round by Civic team

3rd round by the Fatty Team

tak sampai half minute i guess, we dy felt into the water..not to be surprise, check out our size hhaa

group pic -habis basah

lunch time.. the food wasnt nice, but anything saja la..

parasailing

messy yet funny pic before heading back to kk

DINNER TIME

my fav fried oyster yummy

Satay

ngei ngei chicken wing

ketam goreng

After dinner.. heading to K-Box

celebrate eric bday in advance

shit my eyes, was being so emo that night, thought of ky and bunch of them,memory back to my happy life in year 2008..missing them f*cking badly, everything gone, no more chance for me to sing k with her anymore.. i just couldnt control my tears.. sorry guys, kinda embarrasing

Thanks for the memory..

Back in apartment, no drunker tonight

The end of day 2.

KK Trip - Day 1

2009-11-30T14:49:00.009+08:00

Oct 30. 2009
It was so excited to meet them up, having my first trip with bunch of them..to KK, Sabah

1300- Miri Airport

(heng,kiemin,wanggek,eric,jamie)

2.45- arrived in KK

waiting for our tour guide, heng cant stand dy, too hungry..

in apartment

here intro you our pretty stress tour guide-jenny, and the formal chin tour guide jonathan =)

danny, who were supposed to fly together with us from miri, but end up took earlier flight from kch

high tea at damai

guo tie,cha mee tikus,kit zai peng gi, roti bakar, and ngei ngei chicken wing

later on, we proceed to sutera habour..picture taking section

back to apartment.get ready for dinner, jenny hasnt arrive, we are gonna die of hunger..hhaa

ambil gambar first, jenny on her way..

arrived at..erm cant remember the name of this place

seafood chin..yummy..

makan, makan and makan

heading to ice bar

halloween celebration

with the hellboy

and the zombie

ai-lik-ke 艾立克 yang

jenny, KO..

love this pic, funny guys..

kiemin, jonathan, danny

jenny,jamie,wg

love this, the pretty jamie

剪刀，石头，布
scissors, stone, cloth

Team 1-jonathan,heng,kiemin,jenny

Team 2-eric, jamie, danny, wanggek

punishment to the lose team

jenny was wondering, how could she lose every single game in 3hours time, pity the team member.. hhaa..jenny losing rate 99.9%

the colour of our face tells the result..

Team 1-win none

Team 2-lose none

Group pic before leaving..

zzZ.. end of day 1 in KK.

Ms Lim Wedding

2009-11-23T00:19:00.008+08:00

wow.. wasnt able to spend some time to update my blog, yeah i know its been long, and this is kinda outdated post too.. it was few weeks back, 28th Oct.. anyway..here to share with you, the precious moments of huimin.. (will upload more when i get all the pictures) the bride, Ms. Lim, it was like yesterday when i first know her, i still remember she was in orange t-shirt, standing outside 1D class, Block A, St. Joe. My parents and I were talking to her, cant really remember what was the conversation about, but i do remember that they were asking her about which class she is in, and stuff.. to find me a companion =) and with that, she became the first friend of mine in miri. Yes, they found me a good companion, who help me a lot.. lending me her notes, although... hhaa her handwritting could beat doctor's font; taught me the destination of each bus, which bus to parkson, mega.. ; and ate mc D together, she loves mc D to the max...especially the toy..even now that she is married, i guess she would never change.. and together with shirley wong, we had so much fun and laughter, creating sweet memory, which will be kept forever in our heart.. thanks for making part of my life wonderful =)

Ji Mui-s in her room, too bad candy,the ketua they all not here..

Huimin's room

Huimin's new room

Last but not least, although it was like yesterday when i first know u, but in fact its actually dy 10years back,sigh time flies.. now that you are married, wishing you happiness.,truly deep from my heart . 我真的打从心里替你开心.. =) i would hope that no matter how many 10 years later, we are still keeping in touch.
Take care, my dear =) !!

*coming up next-KK trip*

My New Toy

2009-10-11T13:19:00.006+08:00

I got my new toy, sandwich maker..

Hello..

ingredients,cheese,bacon,bread,egg,butter

one thing i like bout it is that it can fried egg, which saved a lot of my work, plus its non-stick surface making it more convenient..i could just fry here instead of using pan and this and that, making my kitchen oily =)

Here we go..

Few minutes later..

almost done.. it looks a little disgusting i know, but it indicates that its cheesy--yummy =)

My end product

does it looks nice? it taste great anyway =)

My new toy bring laughter to my family,they loved the sandwich i made, its great when i see the smile on their face..

lOve..

HapPy Lantern Festival

2009-10-04T09:42:00.004+08:00

Its was Lantern Festival yesterday, we had small and simple steamboat at home. Didnt get to see much lantern this year, but surprisingly, there were fireworks and crackers, making it feels like chinese new year eve.. Kinda miss kiddy time, where we will have small party, and the town is full of kids with lantern, walking around.. with very strong festive atmosphere.. the scene could harder be seeing again nowadays..

Some pictures to share with..

My aunt homemade mini mooncake

Steam Kampung Chicken

Steamboat ingredient

Fish

Pork belly
Prawn

The steamboat was simple, yet its sweet and warm to celebrate with family.. its been years since i last celebrate at home, although i was away from home all these years, thanks to those friends who celebrated with me all that while.. =)

lOve..

missing me?

2009-09-19T01:57:00.004+08:00

its been awhile.. ya "a....while" hhaa.. the previous post was on her bday, 19aug..and now its 19 sept.. hhaa..

nothing special, just ordinary peaceful life =)

tomorrow i will be attending my bro friend's wedding.. and im looking forward for sunday..cos im going to the city hhaa.. for days.. (been hide in kampung too long dy,and normally wont stay there for more than 24hours,but this time days..wuhoo..) to do my shopping, for my bro wedding at the end of the year.. she will be very happy to see me, im sure, yes ms liew?

this is the latest pic i took if im not mistaken.. the latest me..at least i hasnt moldy yet hhaa.. the longer i rest, the lazier i get.. but i wont want to start working that soon..at least have to be after my oct trip back to miri to attend my very first friend in miri, a good friend of mine,ms lim's wedding.. , and my trip to kk with them, and my bro wedding..hhee give me another 3months k.. its scary, the kind of life whre i need to wake up early, working till 5.. no more long long holiday, cant just go anywhere with my family as i like anytime.. plan to go travel with both hm,jia,huingxin,and juowei once year will be harder.. but girls,plz once a year, making it to be our year trip k. Another thing is i wanna visit my drian, eat eat eat, i want o jian fried oyster and cha kueh tiaw, hl and hh, bila nak pergi? ajak aichin also..

current time:2.28am

mode : *sleepy* (cant denied that im getting older)

need to have a healthy life, should have to go to bed by 12, but i failed these few days.. nitez..

lOve..

For my dearest 8po~key in password

2009-08-19T20:54:00.005+08:00

Its your 22nd birthday.. im not sure should we still greet you, anyway.. August 19, for me its forever your birthday!! An office lady wear cake for you, hoping that you will become a success PR consultant in heaven..

and this castle is for you.. with all our memories inside..

Last but not least.. Happy birthday!! Im missing you badly, my dear.. RIP.

lOve..

Carry On Till Tomorrow

2009-08-04T22:49:00.004+08:00

This is an old song.. 1969.. was watching HK drama, and heard of it.. it touched me..and two person came to my mind, huathui and hangling.. this song specially dedicated for you.. i hope you get the message, deep from my heart.. and for myself too ..

In younger days, I told myself my life would be my own

And I'd leave the place where sunshine never shone

For my life's too short for waiting when I see the rising sun

Then I know again that I must carry on

Carry on till tomorow, there's no reason to look back

Carry on, carry on, carry on

Beyond the shadows of the clouds and onward to the sky

Carry on till I find the rainbow's end

For my life's too short for waiting when I see the rising sun

Then I know again that I must carry on

Carry on till tomorow, there's no reason to look back

Carry on, carry on, carry on

Drifting on the wings of freedom, leave this stormy day

And we'll ride to tomorrow's golden fields

For my life's too short for waiting when I see the rising sun

Then I know again that I must carry on

Carry on, carry on, carry on

And when the heavy journey's done, I'll rest my weary head

For the world and it's colours will be mine

For my life's too short for waiting when I see the setting sun

Then I know again that I must carry on

Carry on till tomorow, there's no reason to look back

Carry on, carry on, carry on

No matter how rocky the road gonna be, although we cant be in the same ship together at the moment, or maybe in the future too.. but our spirits are there together.. carry on carry on carry on.. ya we have too.. all the best.

At the moment..

2009-07-23T12:53:00.004+08:00

its seems that im too busy till no time to update my blog.. but in fact, im not.. kinda free at the moment..

my daily routine-wake up-breakfast-preparing lunch-lunch-tv-high tea-pc-dinner.. nothing much actually.. bored yet peace? or peace yet bored.. which one to jodge my life,its all depend on how optimistic you are =)

somehow i felt like travelling.. go for a holiday..meeting up with my friends..both hm, jw, huingxin.. missing you guys lotz. its been 5yrs, yet we havent travel together. always hweimei, jia, and me.. and 3of them surely missing..

of cos the most place i wanna go at the moment is penang, to meet the c*keng- ADRIAN TAN. driana tan jinjin, im not just kidding, i really meant it. was checking for the air fare.. but too $$$.. tunggu la kau sana, aku akan pergi jumpa kau.. bawa i pergi makan, makan dan makan..

where should i go next?

2009-07-08T20:47:00.003+08:00

Result released last night..thanks for all the congratz msg.. ya i make it through.. thanks god..i was supposed to be happy,but i cant feel the happiness at all.. maybe cos no more excuse for me not to start finding job since result out dy.. i have to admit that im not ready to say hello to the working world yet.. and the most important reason should be they are not with me.. if i was checking result together with them, after struggling for years, we finally make it through.. graduate together, thing might be different..but now im all alone..she was supposed to share the success with me right now,we are supposed to start planning of where is our next destination.. yet she can never make it anymore.. 8po, we all did good job this sem, we all pass every units.. i guess this is the first time none of us fail any unit.. 8po.. things are so imperfect without you.. i try not to be emo here, i tell myself not gonna write something sad.. but i fail in this post.. i miss you so much.. the pain remains still.. anyway.. you should have be pleased for our success.. thanks for the bless.. Im sure you are looking at us from upstairs, and blessing us right down here.. love you so much.. muakz..

tell you something funny.. 8po lau's lover msg her and congratz her with "love you so much"hhaa.. biasa ba, dia orang kawan baik, they sleep together, study together, play together.. hhaa.. go and chek her.. chek her chin chin..

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where should i go next? no answer at the moment.. not to say i have no idea at all.. i would let you know when the time comes..

to all my friends.. see you guys during graduation next year..

8po-s, huathui aichin drian..bla bla bla..no matter where i go.. although we all seperate all around the places, you guys are forever my dearest f"cker.. take care..

lOve..

2009-06-16T12:37:00.005+08:00

Its been awhile since my last update. im currently back in my hometown.. life is good, home sweet home..exams over..and if im able to go through both papers, i would be oficially a fresh graduate.. July 8th, im hoping for a great news.. yeah..

SM Class Photo

SM class taken by Lousy Photographer with Good Handphone, yet

Lousy quality picture, Mr. Frog Ko

IM class-total number of students in the class were 14, yet normally there were only 8students attending, and the 6students who were absent arent those who always skip.. but we take turn and unintentionally making the attendance % constant hhaa..

action ajak budak-budak ni...

These two are my best group members for both units.. thanks a lot for everything..i don wanna see you guys again in class, hhaa we meet during convo next year..

In-campus life was great this sem, but still cant beat with summer 2008, where i did it together with my 8po Lau.. that was the best sem ever.. both in and out-campus. too bad i don have any pictures of it..

Im done with this stage of my life, got to clear all the history, the bad part of it, and all the shits that happened..but those shits taught me lotz, it grew me up..; the sweet part would always remain in my heart forever..

I haven ready for the next stage yet.. relax and rest for awhile.. as chinese said "resting is preparing for another longer journey", thats why im resting.. hhaa

lOve..

BBQ-haPpy bIrthdAy..

2009-06-05T18:17:00.031+08:00

So.. continue from the previous post.. these are what i bought.. lamb, sausages,chicken wing, fish,chesdale cheese,carrot and cabbage, potatoes,mayonaise,pandan leaf, corn...

5.00pm their personal assistant-fan..

5.30pm Opening Ceremony..

Food of the day.. Pork

Sausages

Corn Chicken Wing

Watermelon

Mash Potato

Coleslaw

Lamb

My budak to penggang for first round..their motto is, "eat before serving others.." 2nd round

Eat eat eat.. eating is the best thing in life.

"Toy" of the night..my WATSON LOTION MATE MASSAGER..they were so interested with my massager, talking bout it whole night..i wonder why, and i never thought of it as a vibrater..except for its vibrating effect..but for them, and every guy, yes it is.. hello, it is just some massager for body okay...

Here comes the most precious moment of the night..Thank you thank you every one.. the cake is expensive.don't spoil it plz..
Group photos.. here the bully started.. One thing i found out, Ms Lim Ai Chin.. you are involved too?! okay you..and lee huathui, "My Hair ah!!"

wtf.. !@#$%^&&*(())_)(*&^%$$##@@!@#$$%%^&&*(())

Pretties in the house..

Eng dao-s in the house, 11 final candidates for Miri Most Talented Stupid Good Looking Guy

The ugliest picture of me..with the cream and messy hair..oh gosh..

BEFORE & AFTER

(Moral of this is Celebrating ur bday at home, at least you get to wash up)

*by the way ms chan siew li, how come i don't have my ugly picture with you?

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A "cleaner" group photo, without cream at least..

In the end: Ms Chan Siew Li lost in the group, and hasnt been re-appear yet.
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Another shot..

At the end: Ms Chan Siew Li kena gang bang..

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They all left at 1.30pm.. i finally get to ly down on the sofa, the house is clean, everything clean, including the food..and the thing is i just realized that i belum makan lagi..im hungry.. i forgot to eat, wth.. i just ate one chicken wing, and few slices of lamb, a little mash potatoes and coleslaw.

hhaa.. I found one companion to go to Lutong.. Mr Arvin.

3.45am Lutong Market

Now they got the price, menu board. its okay if you cant read the menu, but the most important point is RM 1.30 for Mee,Mee Pok,Kueh Tiaw,Bee Hoon,Kwang Tung Mee,Wantan,Mee Goreng, Kueh Tiaw Goreng, and Bee Hoon Goreng.

There are stall number 1 (right) and 2 (left)..and you know what they all don talk to each other..you cant say that cos they are competitors, see they share 1 menu board. hhaa (maybe kilang yg sponsor tu cut cost), you wouldnt see them talk to own ppl too,everyone busy with their own work,cook, fried,tapao..good work allocation, no wonder..as according to arvin, maybe thats their secret to make money.. yeah who knows..so keep your mouth shut..

We ordered 2 plates of Fried Kueh Tiaw and Wanten

Yummy?? only RM 1.30

I show you the size of a wantan..

Im sure i gonna miss this next time..

The competitive advantage of stall number 2 is they got home-made chili (Arvin 2009)

You CAN NEVER get this from another place, but Lutong Miri.

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Last but not least.. Happy birthday to myself..

Thanks a lot for everything.. for the party, cake, presents, fun, joy, and bday wish messages..muakz..

lOve..

Final Exam Season..

2009-06-03T21:37:00.012+08:00

It came to the last stage of my study life.. guess, erm not guessing, but surely this is gonna be my last time to sit for the final exam, i would not want any delay or stuff.. =) .. later on i would step into another stage of my life, earning for myself.

My five years in Uni, the best thing is to meet with these people.. they brought me joy, and fun. Although it was short.. yet the memory remains forever..

Previously, final exam season was great and fun to the max with their accompanied..

We stop studying when we are tired, and started to search for food.. it might be just simple, yet we can have lotz of fun..

One thing we, and lotz of other students like is, burning mid night oil and going to Lutong Market at 3+ am for the RM1 noodle, fried kueh tiaw and noodle, wantan.. all these cost only 1buck per plate.. never ever have the thought that price=quality. You can never apply "you get what you pay" here.. the food is nice, real nice, ermmm yummy, and the most important thing is Its CHEAP.. the price should had increase 30 cents now if im not mistaken, its still cheap anyway..im not able to upload any picture of the food, will try next time.

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2009, my final sem..

its all gone, now that im alone.. yet i need to move on..

Its kinda sad, no more noises, laughter, and fun. Im doing my revision all alone..

my 8po-s hl and sy and driana tan jin jin, "study ah.. exam is just around the corner.. we cant fail, HHHHHHD is our aim, you gonna waste another n K if you fail.. "

Take a breath..having a party..

i seriously wish that four of you are here.. my bday never gonna be perfect without any of u.. come back to me plz.. "don leave me in all this pain, don leave me out in the rain,come back and bring back my smile, come and take these tears away.....Take back that sad word good-bye Bring back the joy to my life Don't leave me here with these tears Come and kiss this pain away I can't forget the day you left Time is so unkind And life is so cruel without you here beside me.."

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I went to boulevard, shop for tomorrow bbq..

Wondering on what did i bought?? follow up with my blog.. =)

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Currently..

and SURELY..

lOve..

May 28, 2009 Happy Dragon Boat Festival

2009-06-01T13:12:00.009+08:00

Dragon Boat Festival, the main character- Ms. Dumpling

May 27..shopping for steamboat-ing again, hhaa for the dumpling festival celebration, we are far away from home, and its lucky to have all these friends to celebrate together..

Ready for tomorrow..

May 28th, 2009
here we go.. basically we got the similar food as usual..

Lamb and the bone..

Seafood-Crab, Prawn, and Cutterfish..

Vegetables...

Beancurd, corn, yuba..

But this time we have additional thing, Sai Yeung Choi

Bayam Carrot

Sausage, Fishballs, and crab stick.. Fish..

Group photo of the food..

Are you starving up to this point?

No?? sure..??

Not even now?? becareful, your nose gonna grow longer..

Its fun to have gathering..

I love steamboat-ing..its warm and nice..

see, i told you, its fun.. hhaa

Thanks guys, for the night, and this time its better than the previous, at least its not just to have only 4of us eating. however it never gonna be perfect anymore.. for the absence of them.. my dearest f""ker..miss you guys lotz!!

lOve..

Leo Closing Dinner

2009-05-28T00:55:00.030+08:00

May 23, 2009 Miri City Leo Club Closing Dinner

7.30pm Arrival of The CEO.. CK Seng..
and his secretary..Tsen Tao, busy recording..

His kawan baik .. Raymond Goh, busy text-ing

his driver, Lee Huat Hui- busy eating..

yeah.. here it comes..FOod oF the night..

Shark fin soup

BBQ Chicken

Duck

Butter Milk Prawn

Pork Yam Basket

Desserts

Fruits

and Yammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm Sheng...

(are we supposed to sing Auld Lang Syne, instead of Yammmm Sheng..??)

anyway.. 2nd round 10.30pm Thai Bar

photo taking before anything..

Chan Siew Li : "ooooooooooooooooi chai...., bong-gok"

Chong: "where where??"

excuse me Mr. Chai, what kind of reaction was that? Chong: " yes!! i caught him.." hhaa

aichin, wg, esther..

ellen, sorry bout this, but i love this pic, you looks "pretty" with your eyes closed as well..

The Ladies..

Cheers..

St-joes and 4 cha pa lang( 1st, 2nd, 3rd, 4th-front-right).. hhaa..

The end

lOve..

A Night with Mr. Bean

2009-05-21T21:37:00.003+08:00

I was sitting at the sofa, watching tv.. and saw this Mr. Bean show..
and Mr. Bean huge turkey "disgusted" me..
I don see anything funny bout this, but maybe Bean's fans would like it..

this is so!@#$%*#%@^ arghhhh..

Miss Q dearest.. enjoying your chicken burger.. imagine this might be made from huge chicken..maybe larger size than Mr. Bean's turkey.. hhaa

lOve..

May 16, 2009

2009-05-17T14:45:00.037+08:00

1.00pm --

Business Quiz.. we were joining for fun.. no more F+ion=Fion, cant make it as Lee Hang Gek, no more Alice in the wonderland.. and we are in Group I

cb po.. see how much we miss you..

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2.30pm- Deciding to have steamboat..
3.00pm-Result announced-we don make it to second round of the quiz..wuhoo was so happy, cos we got more important thing to do.. SHOPPING FOR STEAMBOAT_ING

Boulevard

Banyak sale..banyak orang.. happy aichin..

we bought..

yellow noodle, mee kuning

tauhu-bean curd

my fav lamb

and the bones

xi ham..

Prawn-udang.

crab-ketam

yuba 腐竹

corn-jagung pau..

mushrooms.. Flammulina & Pleurotus abalonus

Lady's finger..

vege..

Preserved egg.

belacan for the sauce

here come the sauce of the day..

Mr. Lee Huat Hui

5.45 pm yeah..picture-ing before eating..

Yummy..

8.00pm Here comes our guest, Curtin Idol.. Mr. Liew Yoke Wai

Last but not least, fion lau hang ling, this is for you.. yummy xi ham.. cheers..

Enjoy the video.. to Hl, Ky, Sy, and Tfj.. we miss you alot and a lot!!

lOve..

live as if there is no tomorrow..

给在天堂的keeying

0612.2011

加油！

觉悟-负责

！@#￥%……

第3次在天堂的生日

想说说话

看了一则报道

头好痛，心好累

所谓的避风港

=（

零。要求的爱

工作，家人，情人，朋友。。

祝我生日快乐

...

笔呢？

开心伤心 开始结束

亲爱的

不开心，只想静静

2012

0612.2010

薏米汤

你的生日

那个傻瓜

不想睡

疯了

？？

《未来的第一站》

下雨的夜晚

尾声。。

临睡*晚安

她

今天

不快乐的中秋

他和她

天黑了

。。

今晚。。

想 oo

简单幸福

彩虹

下雨了。。

还是那样的想你。。生日快乐

鸡翅膀·。·你

她好想他。。

sunday

after awhile..

its been long....

KK Trip-Day 4

KK Trip - Day 3

KK Trip- Day 2

KK Trip - Day 1

Ms Lim Wedding

My New Toy

HapPy Lantern Festival

missing me?

For my dearest 8po~key in password

Carry On Till Tomorrow

At the moment..

where should i go next?

BBQ-haPpy bIrthdAy..

Final Exam Season..

May 28, 2009 Happy Dragon Boat Festival

Leo Closing Dinner

A Night with Mr. Bean

May 16, 2009

开心伤心开始结束